What if the very thing you think is helping you survive is actually keeping you stuck?

For so many people, addiction isn’t just about making poor choices or having a “bad habit.” It is often a silent attempt to quiet deep emotional pain that never found words.

In this powerful episode of Thrive by the Rising Muse, we sit down with Trina, who opens up about her personal journey through childhood abandonment, unhealthy relationships, church hurt, and years of long-term marijuana use. Her story is a raw, honest reminder that true freedom isn’t an overnight fix—it’s a process anchored in faith, courage, and community.

1. The Invisible Wounds of Childhood Abandonment

Trina grew up as the youngest of four children in a single-parent home. While her older siblings spent time with their biological father, Trina was left behind, asking questions no child should have to ask: Am I wanted? Where do I belong?

Even when another caring adult stepped in, the subtle ache of feeling unwanted took root. In this episode, Trina reflects on how early experiences of rejection shaped her identity, leading to persistent self-doubt and relationship struggles that followed her well into adulthood.

2. When Coping Turns into Self-Medication

At just 15 years old, Trina tried marijuana for the first time. What started as a social activity quickly became a mental refuge—a way to mute the constant noise of insecurity and quiet the anxious thoughts in her head.

Trina’s story highlights an essential truth about recovery: addiction is often self-medication. Rather than simply asking why the addiction?, her experience challenges us to ask where is the pain? For Trina, marijuana was deeply intertwined with years of depression, shame, and staying in unhealthy relationships because she didn’t believe she deserved better.

3. Why “Just Pray About It” Wasn’t Enough

For years, Trina heard well-meaning advice: “Give it to God” or “Renew your mind.” But knowing the scriptures and actually experiencing internal transformation were two very different things.

In the episode, Trina candidly shares how real healing required a dual approach:

• Deepening her faith: Engaging with Scripture intentionally and finding a safe, supportive church community.
• Doing the practical work: Seeking professional counseling and committing to a Christian-based recovery program.

She reminds us that God often works through process, community, and therapeutic tools to bring about lasting freedom.

Ready to Take the First Step Toward Your Own Healing?

If you have ever felt stuck in past hurt, struggled with self-doubt, or wondered how faith and recovery work hand-in-hand, Trina’s story will inspire and encourage you.

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Remember: Asking for help isn’t a sign of weakness—it’s the first courageous step toward living free.

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